“Be the change you want to see in the World.”- Ghandi

My first Blog post:

Hi, so this blog is about learning to love yourself, and this blog will take you along on my journey of just that. 36yrs, I have been on this planet and not once can I honestly say I have loved myself. YES, true story. You ask, “Well how have you manage to make it this far without at least loving yourself a little?” Well, my answer is simple; I have no freaking idea friend!! By the will of God , or the will of myself, or the fear of dying maybe. Just because I have not been able to know how to love myself doesn’t cancel me out from a purpose to live. I have loved. The common misconseption is that you can not love anyone if you do not love yourself. It is my love for others that has kept me going this long. You would not believe the countless times I have thought about ending it all ( or maybe you can believe it), but the one thing that stopped me many times, is the love I have for someone else. You see it is easy to love someone if you do not see yourself in them. It was me I did not like, so as long as “I” could not be found in someone else then I liked,or loved them. At least this is how I make sense of it all. Everything I feel is so labeled, like nothing anymore can be, other than what it is already defined. Well, as long as the sun keeps rising and the moon comes back every-night than who am I to say anything is set in stone. This includes after 36 years of living one way, that I can say enough and learn to live another. God says through him all things are possible; so since I have tried to do all things through my own way of thinking and I still have no self love, than why can’t I try it through him. He promised, right. Haven’t heard of God going back on his promises to us, but I know I have gone back on promises to myself alot!! How many times am I going to let myself down, before I get rid of me and open myself up to a new me, who will treat me better. So this blog is going to be a “live” journey. Everyday I will post my progress and whatever challenges I face or positive changes I make, and hopefully I can get some input from you all as well. I want this, how bad you say? I want this, like most people want to eat their favorite food without gaining a pound!! In hopes that someone may read and it may help them as well, or at least give them something to relate too. You, me, all of us, we are so not alone! We have each other, the way God intended it. So please stay tuned, this is a developing page. I am ready for change and to fall in love with me, as God’s creation and see myself as he sees me, and love me as he loves me.

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